Confirmation

As those words found their ways to my ears,
I quietly sipped my soup.
It didn't hurt nearly as much as I though it would.
Just acceptance, and realization...
A confirmation of what I had expected...
No, I didn't feel a thing....
at that moment anyhow...

I cannot say that it would remain that way for the rest of the day,
It just took time for these things to seep in I guess.
Yes, I was quiet alright, I just needed time to think..
So while they chattered, my mind drifted
Yes, it was good to know.
Now that I've got that cleared, I can move on.

I did not like to hear those words,
I just could not comment or respond to them,
well, not yet anyway. Just needed more time to get used to the idea.
It was the truth afterall, and I have no choice but to accept it.
Somehow it cleared the air, I realized.
So after a few hours of pondering, I realized.
Yes, it's time to move on.
I won't dwell on that though, I decided there and then.

Just like that, I was back to my cheerful self again.
For a while at least.
Somehow, I didn't feel like going to that movie,
Especially when I knew what it was going to be about.
Not today, I thought, why do I have to watch this type of movie today?
Argh, it won't be that bad I thought.

It was a good movie afterall,
All things being said, I would have enjoyed it more,
another time.
I could not help going back, and compare certain aspects,
of the movie and how I felt at the moment.

And so as they regirously discussed the meaning of the movie,
I was quiet.
I listened.
But I didn't comment.
for many reasons I guess,
but most of all because I just didn't want to talk.
I was, in more ways than one, back to my thought
a little less thinking should do me good.
It has had time to seep in.
I just needed time to accept it,
act appropriately,
and move on...

19 Dec 2004